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Title: Parrot
Author: macy
Pairing: Okamoto Keito x Inoo Shinju ([info]shinju) x Nakajima Yuto, other pairings shinju ships~
Rating: G
Genre: Drama, Romance, Friendship
AN:
-unbetaed
-it is 9 parts~! :)) i'm almost finished with the last one. i realize some things don't add up. but that's because i forgot to mention it in previous chapters. lols. it's hard to do a multichap where you have to slowly give little details as you go. i always forget what things the reader still doesn't and does know. /shot jk is such a genius. :)))

anyway,regarding the timeframe, it's been at least six months since shinju and yuto 'made up.' let's say kei do visit japan sometimes, but only for a little while and then goes back to his assigned project in australia. /whacked





Part 8
Shinju's POV

"So tomorrow's finally the day." Umika said, grinning.

I just nodded. I bet she was more excited than I am.

"How do you feel?" Kanon asked me.

"I don't really feel anything in particular." I told her, without thinking. I regretted it at once when I saw her worried expression. She must know what this is for her brother. And she's worried of what this is for me. Honestly, I don't know myself.

"It's probably still not registering in her head." Umika said, giggling. "Tomorrow when you finally realized what really is happening, I bet you'd be having mixed feelings." She said.

I just shook my head at her in exasperation and amusement.

"I'm really glad it is you…" Kanon suddenly said.

I smiled at her and nodded. "I'm glad it's your brother."

I'm surprised when I realized I wasn't lying.

"Can I ask you something?" I addressed Kanon quietly after a while. Both of us are watching Umika put on a facial mask. It was quite amusing, actually.

"What is it?" She asked back.

"I'm just curious… about you and Ryuu." I told her.

She smiled fondly as I said his name.

"What about us?" She asked.

"How did you do it?" I said without thinking. I realized I might have sound rude too late. I looked at her apologetically, but she just shook her head, grinning.

"You heard from Nii-chan about our parents?" She asked.

I just nodded.

She gave me a small smile. "I've known about their story since I was little." She said. "It's also what I expect would happen to me. And it really came. A proposal for marriage, covering a proposal for a merge."

I looked at her, waiting.

"I found out it was your company, and I thought it would be would Yuri so I told myself I'm lucky. I've known him since he became friends with Nii-chan. But then I found out that it wasn't him. He'd refused..." Kanon trailed off.

"It was… with Nii-chan?" I asked, surprised. I never heard anything about this.

She nodded. "That was the original plan. And that was when Ryuu confessed to me. He told me he'd have feelings for me for a long time, but he just didn't have the guts to say anything. He told me he regrets that because it seems it was too late. I told him it was too late from the beginning. But then…" She smiled a little sadly, playing with her fingers.

"My brother found out." She said with a sigh. "Suddenly he was in front of me, kneeling. He apologized for not being there for me. For trying to escape from our parents and leaving me behind. I never thought of it that way though. He told me I should be with Ryuu. That he'd watched us and he knows there is something worth risking."

"And then he changed." She continued saying. "He started doing what our father always asked him. And then he told him he wanted to be heir. My father was pleased, nii-chan had never shown any interest to the company. And that's how it became like this."

She looked at me. "I guess it's my fault. I'm sorry."

I shook my head at her. "It's not. And I realized, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be."

It was sometime after midnight when the two of them finally fell asleep. Moving carefully, I stood up from our bed. I still wasn't feeling sleepy. And I wanted to be by myself for a while, so I took my robe and silently walked out our room.

We, the three of us, our families and some of the visitors, were currently in the hotel, close to where the wedding would be held. We needed to be up very early so it was more convenient to stay somewhere close by.

I guess I should try to get as much sleep… the wedding would be a few hours from now… But like Umika said, it seems it's still not registering in my head. I don't feel like anything special would happen in less than twelve hours.

I remembered the call yesterday and I'm feeling something now: sadness. My brother wanted to come home for the wedding but my father insisted he stay another day because there was a deal they still haven't closed. He said he'd still try, but I don't want to expect anything.

I saw a clock as I descended the stairs. So it's my wedding day today… I don't really have a plan of where I'm going and I don't care. I just wanted to walk. I wanted to think.

My feet brought me to the lobby and I was surprised to find someone else there.

"Sayuri." He saw me at once.

"Yuto."

"Can't sleep?" He asked. He was seated at one of the couches. He made no move to approach me. I didn't move to approach him.

"No…" I said. "You?"

He shook his head no. "Been thinking about a friend…" He trailed off.

"You can sit over hear…" He told me.

"They say a bride and a groom shouldn't meet the eve before their wedding day." I said. I don't know if I want to stay here with him right now.

"It's already our wedding day." He pointed out.

"They say they shouldn't meet before the ceremony." I said.

He shrugged. "It's not like we planned to meet here."

"That's true." I said, giving in and moving towards him.

"Is your brother coming?" He asked as I sat.

"He wants to. He said he'll try." I said.

"I hope they would come." He said distractedly. I didn't know what he meant by 'they.'

"How are you feeling?" He asked me. "In less than twelve hours, you would stop being an 'Inoo.'" He told me, nonchalant.

"I honestly don't know." I told him.

He was quiet, looking out the window. I only noticed It was full moon.

"Would it be better…" He said in a whisper, "if I was him?"

Did he really need to ask me this? I sighed, knowing that yes, he do.

Would it be better if it was Keito besides me right now?

I don't know. I can't seem to imagine it.

"I don't know." I told him once more. I felt guilty that I couldn't give him a better answer.

I think he wanted to ask another question, but I too have my own, so before he could speak once more, I asked, "Is this okay?" I hope he understood what I'm trying to ask.

He gave me a small smile. "That's my question for you." He said. "I know we've talked about this before, but a lot changed. Is this still okay with you? Is it okay that I've stopped pretending? That I'm taking advantage of this. That I'm glad you'll be by my side? I'm not taking back our deal. We could divorce anytime you want. I'm not asking you to do the same, to feel the same… but it must bother you."

I couldn't look at him. I still don't understand what I feel for him. He's so much like Keito, but he's not. He's Yuto. He'd asked me before to stop looking at him for who he's not. But I'm doing it again. I wasn't being fair.

"I…" I started saying, still not looking at him. "I don't know what I feel about… what you said. But I think… I'm really grateful it's you. I think I'll also be glad it's you who'll be by my side… I think it's not just you who's taking ad--"

I didn't noticed that he'd moved closer. Everything stopped as he touched his lips to mine.

He pulled away almost as instantly.

"Sorry." He said and stood up, leaving me there.

-

5 hours ago -- Australia
 
Kei's POV

I knew at once that it was her. Mami, my first love.

She looked as beautiful as ever. I never knew I'd see her here. I'm happy for that.

I felt a jolt as she looked my way. I see recognition in her face and she gave me a small smile. I started making my way to her. I didn't know much of the people in this business party, it was a relief to see a familiar face.

But it being Mami, it was also a little painful.

"Sasazaki-san." I said with a small bow.

"Inoo-san." She acknowledged, formally. It was for the people around us.

"I'm glad to see you." I told her honestly.

"Me too." She said, looking at me like she wanted to be sure it is me.

She seemed to realize what she was doing and looked away. Awkwardly, she tucked a lock of hair behind her ears. That's when I saw it.

She was wearing a wedding ring.

I closed my eyes as pain engulf me, but I held on my smile. "How are you?"

"I'm fine. It's been long…" She said, sounding nostalgic.

"What should I call you now?" I asked, my voice courteous still.

She understood at once what I meant. Unconsciously, I think, she touched her ring.

"I'm Fujino Mami now..." She answered me. And then pointed at one of the men by the buffet.

"Are you happy?" I had to ask.

"I'm content." She said.

I smiled. "That's good."

"He knows about everything." She started saying. "He knows about you."

"You love him." It was out before I knew what I was saying.

"He's my friend." She said very softly, so that only I could hear. "He's a good man."

"That's good." I said, once more. I feel like my throat is dry.

"Your sister…" She suddenly said.

I looked at her sharply. She looked worried.

"Your brother..?" I didn't know what I should ask.

"He knows." She suddenly said. "The wedding is today, right? I didn't know who, but someone sent him an invitation." Her voice is urgent. "My brother, since he was little, he'd given up on his wants, his choices and uncomplainingly accepted what our parents want for us… I think that changed with her. With your sister…"

"Where is he??" I asked, feeling panicked as well.

"I couldn't stop him." She said, looking like she wants to cry. Both of us didn't want either my sister or her brother to go through what we did.

"When did he go?" I asked.

"This morning." Her eyes were pleading. She doesn't want her brother to hurt.

"I have to go." I said hastily.

She nodded and before I could turn away, she took my hands in hers. "Thank you, Kei."

I wanted to hug her, but I fought the urge. I nodded at her, wanting to give more, but knowing I can't. I hope she understands.
 
"There's something else…" She suddenly said. "About my brother… about him going to US…"
 
"I think I know." I said.

-

It felt a little weird. He feels like he's still on the airplane. Jetlag. He had a very long flight. It was expected, but still weird.

He didn't know what he felt when he saw Japan…. Tokyo. There was only one thing in this place that matters to him.

Shinju.

A flash of her in her pink dress emerge in before his eyes. He remembered when he first met her.

Shinju doesn't remember it, but he does. It was a precious memory. The first time they escaped.

They were only around seven then. They didn't really even know what they were doing. They met at the train station close to the hospital. Keito didn't know how Shinju managed it, but it was easy for him, going out through the laundry shuttle.

The only thing he had with him then was a picture of his dad and his sister, and his piggy-bank. As a child, he thought that was enough.

And then he met her. A child like he was, wearing a pink formal dress and holding on to a small back. She looked lost, but then she looked determined as well.

She was the one who first approached him, asking for directions; as if he knew any better.

They ended up deciding on the same place to go: Disneyland.
He couldn't remember what he thought would happen if they went there, but they knew so little places.

They had to pretend they were with their parents, following some adult strangers, and amazingly, it worked.

"What's your name?" She asked when they were already seated inside the train.

He told her, "Sasazaki." He told her how it was his mother's surname and how when his dad and his mom married, his dad took the name instead of the other way around.

"That's a long name." She commented. "I'll just call you Saki." She suddenly said.

"That's a girl's name." He complained.

"You can call me Shin." She said with a grin. She knew that was a boy's name.

But they weren't able to go far. Just a few stations after, his sister appeared with their butler, both looking very worried. Her sister had hugged both him and his new friend, crying while halfheartedly scolding them. And then Shinju's brother came, looking a lot like how his sister did. And then he took her away.

It was how she smiled that got her. He haven't seen someone smile like her. So alive, so sincere. All the kids in the hospital always looked somber. His sister smiles a lot for him, but most of the time she looks sad. His mother or father or any of the adults around him seemed to have forgotten how to smile.

He couldn't forget that smile. So when he saw her again in that library, he was sad to see that it had gone.

They became friends, but she didn't remember him. Instead of saying his mother's name, he had given her his father's: Okamoto.

They were always together, mostly in the library. She loves reading books. He told her he prefers staying in the library than outdoors. It was true, but he didn't mentioned that the reason of that is because he can't do anything strenuous. He'd always been weak since he was a kid. They called it exercise intolerance, they say it was normal for someone like him. Someone who have Tarui's disease.

And she had became someone more than a memory to him. Someone he wanted to live for.

Someone he wanted to get better for.

He'd invited her to go to Disneyland, the place they couldn't go to when they were kids. He gave her the necklace and promised to meet her in the clubhouse. He was planning to confess, and to tell her it was him who ran away with her.

But she didn't come. And he had to go.

He wanted to be better, and his father arranged to meet with a doctor in US. His father said this doctor was trying to work on a treatment for the disease. He'd modified an enzyme, but it was still just a prototype.

They promised he would get better. And he did. But it took a lot of time. Too much time.


He looked at the paper in his hands. He still haven't decided what he felt about the whole thing. How ironic was it that it was his friend, Jim… Why did it have to be him?

All those mails he sent him… why did it have to be about her?

Keito closed his fist, suppressing an urge to scream, and at the same time crumpling the wedding invitation.

There was only one thing running in his mind:

"I just can't give her up."

TBC


little teaser for the last part :P

When they were right in front of me, Yuto finally noticed something was wrong with me. "Are you okay, Sayu? Nervous?" He asked.

--

He smiled my favorite smile. "You're still wearing it." He said.

--

"She chose him."

-----


macy: and i just realize. this song fits Keito





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